you can't buy happiness, but you can buy tea, and thats kind of the same thing. i've been told that i have a knot inside my chest,
like those of the inside of a tree truck, eternally circling and looping. thats kind of how it feels, heavy and unstoppable.
if i have a tree inside me, then maybe that could explain the shaking, its just the westerly winter winds blowing and
making my far too fragile limbs bend but never break. i soak the tea leaves into the roots that are deep within my
fleshy heart and hope the capillaries will carry to wherever the aches are most ingrained and unnatural.
mother told me three winters ago that she could read the leaves and tell me how my skin was going to grow
and how my head was going to think six summers from now. she told me that my precious head was ever tired
over nothing and my chests storm will ease after one final hurricane, that despite its best efforts will
not destroy me, simply leave my skin a little tougher and my muscles stronger and less susceptible to
quivering and breaking down in the middle of shopping malls or school hallways.
its only just flowers and water and some hot warming steam that can soak into your lungs and ease the burning of blood
that is far too heavy to be flowing through such delicate veins. they are all over your body and i wonder how they
haven't collapsed like the rest of me. all split and left my skin even paler and number than it already is.
there is a language in the spaces between sips and swallows that is all sighs and cupping of mugs tighter trying
to warm all of the skin and bones and muscles that are tangled and aching and colder than i can even begin to describe.
but after a few years i learned that mother was right. the tea had settled after a thousand cups and it filled that gap
that was inside my chest that was just resting, not expanding, but not lessening either. it just sat there letting everything
in and adding to the great big tangle inside my chest, that i sometimes feared had replaced my heart.
the warmth trickled through bones caves and pooled in the valleys, smoothing down the rough edges and
extinguishing all the flames. leaving my insides warm and cool and full of something other than a sickness
or a heaviness that left me doubled over and shaking from the inside out for so many nights that i swore
would break me in half and leave me for dead.
the oceans are mixed with oolong and subsided or rose and been whisked away with the steam and have left
my lungs light and easier to breathe again. the storm did pass, and my fingers are sore and my chest is still
tight from the shallow breathing for so long and my bones are weak and not able to carry my full weight yet,
but i can crawl.
she was so right. you can't buy happiness but you can buy tea, and that really is a kind of happiness.
I like tea. Congrats on the DD and thanks so much for uploading!!
I know I'm late to say this cause I've been recooperating from the hospital, but now at last I can congratulate you for your wonderful piece, and for receiving a Daily D feature!
Wow, coincidence is a strange beast. I am only now going back and relooking through old DD's after a very busy couple weeks. But to think, that my storm passed, just like this piece said eventually all final hurricanes do, on the same day this was acknowledged. The universe is quite strange in its workings, isn't it.
My mum Loves tea! And she's always happy! Mabye I should take it up too? Love this piece!
wow i'm already shivering at the end
this is beautiful & heartfelt ~ keep up the hard work!
I kind of read this in Shane Koyczan's voice, it reminded me so much of his poetry. Amazing imagery. If you guys haven't yet heard him and like stuff similar to this, I encourage you to look him up on youtube. ^^
This is a beautiful piece of art! I love the imagery and the tone!
Congratulations on the absolutely stunning Daily Deviation! You deserve it much! ♥
I'm so glad I found this!! Wonderful!
this is just astounding! i was blown away! also I love watercolour and tea
Awe-inspiring imagery. Amazing work.
wow, this was really great! I'll definitely have to come back and read it a bunch, but it has some lovely imagery.
- These need to be the lyrics of a fast pace rap. With some wind chimes. I would pay money for this. o___o
That was beautiful..I totally relate!
wow.... this is nice... such strong emotions
wow. As someone who has struggled with anxiety for a long time (and totally gets the soothing power of tea), this really spoke to me. The imagery is so vivid. The phrasing falters occasionally (like switching from singular to plural in "i have a knot inside my chest, like those of the inside of a tree truck"), but that is something that only gets better with time. Lovely work.
Wonderful piece that really connects with the fragility of existence and those things that give us shape and meaning. Well deserved DD.
This is beauty and truth in a most honest and natural form. AND TEA <3
congrats on the dd!
This is a beautiful piece of writing, totally deserves the DD, congratulations!
Congrats on the Daily Deviation!
- Congrats on the well deserved DD!
Have a nice day!
this was absolutely magnificent. congrats on the well deserved dd
Congratulations! This is beautiful.
congrats on the DD! ^^
this is beautiful.
this is beautiful.