thank god for all the varying incarnations that you've taken over the years that all taught me so many things and despite my best wishes thank god thank all the deities that I don't really believe in but in know you do that you taught me that even (no especially) the good things end or change and while it hurts more than anything physical it won't kill us.
but the lack of safety net is fucking with me cause thank god for falling flat on your face and getting back up despite having people looking at you and poking you with sticks and thank God for swearing and how it's the best way to tell someone that they are worse than the gum stuck to the footpath of the shittiest part of town.
Thank god for the low sand how it shows you exactly who you need to kick or kiss when you finally drag yourself out. and thank God for karma and how it always comes around right when it's needed.
thank god for John green and the Internet and all the people who make so thankful for technology that let's me get so close to all these distant people who understand me and are probably not facing the world for the same reasons I'm not.
Thank god for all the ghosts who've weighed me down and bought me to earth and the gravity that reminds me that if I fall off a building I will splat like an orange and that scares me off for a little longer.
and thank God for the misfiring chemicals in my brain that allow me to see the idiots on the Internet and in real life who use illnesses and verbs and think depression is sadness and anxiety is shyness and both can be overcome by some good old wishful and positive thinking. fuck you all.
and more than anything else.
Thank god for you and him and the music and the art and how it heals and all the wounds that became scars.