napowrimo '15.i.napowrimo '15. by ohsparrowsong
its only the first day of april
and you’ve already gotten your
god damned figner prints
all over it
i felt you this morning
a knot in my neck i couldn’t bend
or crack or shake out
and i put 13 teaspoons of sugar in my
coffee this morning
and it was still undrinkable
i think i resent you, for lingering
in all the shittiest ways
you've made me as fucking bitter
as you, you utter bastard.
you never learned that you didnt have to be
such a total fucking asshole to get what you wanted
out of this life.
i got further than you, with less talent and less ambition
but a lighter conscious.
so take that, fucker.
the worst lesson i ever learned was one i wish i learned second hand.
but no, the universe didnt feel like being gentle with me, and it was so fucking unpoetic,
and i felt like the universe has kicked me hard that i was literally eating dick. my own.
thanks universe, i hope you do the same you fuck.
cover your eyes.i remember i came over to your housecover your eyes. by ohsparrowsong
and we watched them fall.
we crouched in front of the dimly glowing box
and tried to figure out what we should be feeling while we watched it all unfold in front of us.
we knew we were watching people, mothers, brothers, sisters, wives, husbands leave this world.
but we just saw smoke and we heard reporters screaching over one another trying to comprehend
it while maintaining a professional appearence.
but we knew that all humans watching this were trying not to break from the completely overwhelming
flood we were all feeling.
i noticed you were crying.
you didnt know anyone personally, but your heart was always the biggest and i'm sure you were trying
to make peace with someone up there and wondering why them, and why not someone else.
and i know you were never a religious person, despite your upbringing, and in that moment when people
were emerging, exhausted, confused and thankful, i knew you never would again. how could any god possibly
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